Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Continuing Intentional Living
Monday, October 20, 2008
Be Intentional In Everything
I inetentionally did not read my favorite BLOGs this morning to avoid being side tracked from tasks that MUST take priority.
I intentionally changed the garbage before it got to full and overflowed or required to people and a crow bar to get it out of the can.

These are not my normal habits or tendencies physically or mentally.
It makes sense to me that my mind gets as full as the garbage.
When was the last time you dumped it out, sorted it for recycling or rummaged for lost treasures?
This is why I am intentionally writing this down. This is why I give myself permission to dump my mind.
I am going to live intentionally...Are you?
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
HELP ME! I've Lost my Rose Colorded God Glasses!
I lost mine today and my friend is lending me hers. (Thank you Donna!)In case you are not familiar what Rose Colored God glasses are, they are the filter that God puts over our eyes that allows us to focus on him and not what the world floods us with.

- Many racehorse trainers believe this keeps the horse focused on what is in front of him, encouraging him to pay attention to the race rather than other distractions, such as crowds.
- They are used on driving horses, to keep them from being distracted or spooked, especially on crowded city streets. A “set of winkers” can refer to the whole bridle, particularly the heavy bridle used on draft horses.
I really need to focus, be encouraged and not get spooked! Today I begin a new challenge that I have never faced. I have been overwhelmed and blindsided.
I am holding on tight to my friend's Rose Colored God Glasses until I can get mine back!
Our System Just Isn't Setup for Death

I new our world view on how to live was askew, but look at this "service" view on handling death!
(I don't encourage the sarcasm, but given the circumstances would find it difficult to refrain myself.)
A lady died this past January, and Citibank billed her for February and March for their annual service charges on her credit card, and added late fees and interest on the monthly charge. The balance had been $0.00 when she died, but now somewhere around $60.00. A family member placed a call to Citibank.
Here is the exchange :
Family Member: 'I am calling to tell you she died back in January.'
Citibank : 'The account was never closed and the late fees and charges still apply.'
Family Member : 'Maybe, you should turn it over to collections.'
Citibank : 'Since it is two months past due, it already has been.'
Family Member : So, what will they do when they find out she is dead?'
Citibank : 'Either report her account to frauds division or report her to the credit bureau, maybe both!'
Family Member : 'Do you think God will be mad at her?'
Citibank: 'Excuse me?'
Family Member : 'Did you just get what I was telling you -
the part about her being dead?'
Citibank : 'Sir, you'll have to speak to my supervisor.'
Supervisor gets on the phone:
Family Member : 'I'm calling to tell you, she died back in January with a $0 balance.'
Citibank : 'The account was never closed and late fees and charges still apply.'
Family Member : 'You mean you want to collect from her estate?'
Citibank : (Stammer) 'Are you her lawyer?'
Family Member : 'No, I'm her great nephew.' (Lawyer info was given)
Citibank: 'Could you fax us a certificate of death?'
Family Member : 'Sure.' (Fax number was given )
After they get the fax :
Citibank : 'Our system just isn't setup for death.
I don't know what more I can do to help..'
Family Member : 'Well, if you figure it out, great!
If not, you could just keep billing her. She won't care.'
Citibank: 'Well, the late fees and charges do still apply.'
(What is wrong with these people?!?)
Family Member : 'Would you like her new billing address?'
Citibank : 'That might help...'
Family Member : ' Odessa Memorial Cemetery , Highway 129, Plot Number 69. '
Citibank : 'Sir, that's a cemetery !'
Family Member : 'And what do you do with dead people on your planet???
(Priceless!!)
Trying to Get Refocused of Daily Dying
God did not give us a spirit that makes us afraid but a spirit of power and
love and self-control.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NCV)
*** *** *** ***
Six keys of self-discipline:
- Master your mood.
- Watch your words.
- Stick to your schedule.
- Manage your money.
- Maintain your health.
2.Watch your words. They put their minds in gear before opening their mouths. “He who guards his lips guards his life” (Proverbs 13:3 NIV).
People with self-discipline restrain their reactions. How much can you take before you lose your cool? “If you are sensible, you will control your temper. When someone wrongs you, it is a great virtue to ignore it” (Proverbs 19:11 GNT).
3. Stick to your schedule. If you don’t determine how you will spend your time you can be sure that others will decide for you! “Live life, then, with a due sense of responsibility … Make the best use of your time” (Ephesians 5:15–16 PH).
4. Manage your money. They learn to live on less than what they make and they invest the difference. The value of a budget is that it tells your money where you want it to go rather than wondering where it went! “The wise man saves for the future, but the foolish man spends whatever he gets” (Proverbs 21:20 LB).
5. Maintain your health. That way they can accomplish more and enjoy their achievements. “Every one of you should learn to control his body, keeping it pure and treating it with respect” (1 Thessalonians 4:4 PH).
The disciplines you establish today will determine your success tomorrow. But it takes more than just willpower for lasting self-discipline. It takes a power greater than yourself: “God has not given us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power and love and self-control” (2 Timothy 1:7 NLT/NCV).
The more I accept God’s control over my life, the more self-control he gives me!
Friday, October 10, 2008
FRIDAY????? What happened to this week???
I peeked back at my BLOGs and I realize that I have a few things out of order and it was brought to my attention during my morning walk with my son and my dog. I loaded my son into the jogging stroller and took off.

I recognized that it was somewhat harder to push, put attributed it to missing the last few days of exercise. I stopped at the first stop sign to realize all three wheels were flat!

In all honesty, who knows how long it has been flat??? As I started up the first hill, I thought about going back to pump up the tires, but was in too much of a rush to turn around. I made it to the top of the hill (breathing much harder than neccesary). The rest of the way was down hill! YEAH!
My dog lead the way running from one side of the street to the other and I said to myself, "I wish she could pick a lane and stay in it!"
Then it hit me - I wish I could pick a lane and stay in it!
How is it I can be disciplined half the week and not the other half??
I was somewhat relieved when I finally read my Executive Pastors Blog - http://www.churchrequel.com/
"The first 40 years or so I usually got up barely in time to make it to work." from the topic Why-i-love-morn
Then he sprung that word on me: DISCIPLINE
My BLOGGING should have begun:
How I will live my last 30 days with DISCIPLINE
Discipline is not a bad thing or a dirty word.
If I had been disciplined enough to pump up the stroller tires the last time. I would not have struggled so much this morning!
If I had gotten up for my time with God. I would not have been rushed for time during the walk and would have turned around an filled the tire this morning.
If I were consistent with my disciplines, most of the grief in my life, would not exist.
Now go do your disciplines!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
I Have Not Been Intentional!
Christ-follower, Wife, Mother, Daugther, Sister, Friend, Project Manager and Volunteer - just to name a few! Sometimes I where these hats with pride. Sometimes I burden them like an Ox's yoke.
Today I remind myself they are all a BLESSING!
I may not be perfect in every responsibility, but I Love having the opportunity to try.
Love Your Life
Live Your Disciplines
Share Your Hope!
PS For those of you that were at the service last weekend, are your rings and watches still on the wrong hands? Mine is! Time to do someting about it!

Monday, October 6, 2008
Mt Jeez is OPEN!
ROAD CLOSED?
To those of you who are not familar with Mt. Jeez,
We gave it another try yesterday, and were blessed for our persistance.
We enjoyed the amazing view, but learned about the unseen also.
We met another group that frequented Mount Jeez, as we spoke, Steve noticed my son going to sit on the hill. He mentioned that he wished he had a camera.
As I videoed my son, Steve told me about his sister that had died of Cervical cancer. He explained that she loved the view here and that they had spread here ashes right where my son was sitting. Steve brought to my attention how the sun was shining on my son's head and it looked as if his head was glowing.
I need to tell you a little more to this story...my son, who is never still, found PEACE on the Mt. this day. Normally he runs up and down the hill an immediately wants to get in the car and go home. He was the last one we rounded up. He had made his way beside the cow pasture and was admiring to baby cows. PEACEFUL, CALM and QUIET.
That night I told my son about Steve and his sister and he said, "Mom, I felt something special when I sat down, now I know why."
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Happy Birthday!
SO,
This blog is dedicated to him...to everything he teaches me and for how much love he gives.
For my children's protection and privacy, I do not post thier names or pictures so let me describe how I see him...
Quiet strength and a warm heart; definately driven by words of affirmation and gifts of time.
He is my protector - even to his siblings, he doesn't allow verbal abuse or physical taps, even when just in play.
He loves God! He is a praise and worhsip leader at our church for his classmates.
He strives to do right and is very hard on himself when he feels he has failed.
His eyes will always speak his truths! Handsome blue eyes that will dart away when a truth is not on his toungue, or sparkle, when he is encouraging me with his young wisdom.
I love my son for everything he is, everything he is striving to be and everything he has yet to discover.
Eventhough, like all parents, I look for the attributes that I recognize in my son...I am amazed in the parts of my son that I don't recognize. Attributes that are not mine or my husbands...I believe this are the strengths that God has given him, that we need to help him recognize and develop.
This are the gifts that make him unique and help him find his purpose and place.
Happy Birthday my son, my blessed gift from God!
Love,
Your Mom
Friday, October 3, 2008
The Prodigal "Dog" or the One Lost "Dog"
My family welcomed a lost dog into our home a few months ago.
Libby, short for Liberty, is a "Beagle-Something". Her ears are as soft as silk with the speed of a race horse.
She was named by her founder, Liberty, to remind us she was free from bondage. Liberty had been a beaten dog and we have spent a good deal of time helping her recovery from her experiences.
Over the last few weeks we have seen her come out of her shell and also our HOUSE, often...
Her speed makes her impossible to catch and her brains make her difficult to trick. Food is usually the hook, but NOT today ;0(
Libby had jumped into the van so we took her along to drop off something at the babysitter. My daughter really wanted the music on so I left the keys in the car as I stepped up to the door.
My babysitter shoots her arm to point...I spin around...Libby jumps out the window! NO!!!!!!!!!
We tried to lure her into the car with cookies but no luck. Libby is part hound and she was free to track so many new smells!
We chased her in the van from street to street. I would hollar for her and she would run the other way.
I would get out of the car, she would get inches from me and then dart again.
I got back in the car several times and said, "Fine! If that dogs wants to be lost in a foreign place, so be it!" But I just couldn't drive the car out of the neighborhood.
What if she couldn't find her way back to the babysitter? No Food, No Shelter
But she wasn't my dog to begin with, maybe she wants to find her way home, maybe she doesn't like us?????
OK, long story short...after 30 minutes I wised up, had my daughter hollar for her and in the van she jumped.
She stunk, but a bath and a few moments in her cage to think about her actions. Everything was back to normal. But I couldn't help but think of theseto Bible stories:
The Prodigal Son and The Lost Sheep (click on the links for the stories)
I am so much like my dog! I turn away when something smells sweeter and I run from a familar voice to the unknown. How blessed am I to have a loving father who takes me back, no matter how bad I stink or how long I have been gone. Most of all, he never stops looking for me even when I stop looking for him.
Thank you Father!
(PS He never puts me in my cage to think about my actions...)
Closer Walk With Thee
Here is a song that I am using to draw closer:
Turn up the speakers and be sure to listen past the slow intro...
Here are the lyrics if you want to sing along:
Precious Lord, Take My Hand / Just A Lyrics by Selah
album: Be Still My Soul (1998), Greatest Hymns (2005)
Thomas A. Dorsey / J.R. Baxter Jr.
Arrangement By Nicol Smith, Todd Smith, Allan Hall
Precious Lord, take my hand
Lead me on, help me stand
I am tired
I am weak
I am worn
Through the storm,
Through the night
Lead me on to the light
Take my hand, precious lord
Lead me home
When my way grows drear’
Precious Lord, linger near
When my life is almost gone
Hear my cry, hear my call
Hold my hand, lest i fall
Take my hand, precious Lord
Lead me home
Take my hand, precious Lord
Lead me home
Just A Closer Walk With Thee
Chorus:
just a closer walk with Thee
Grant it, Jesus is my plea
Daily walking close to Thee
Let it be, dear Lord
Let it be
I am weak, but Thou art strong
Jesus, keep me from all wrong
I’ll be satisfied as long
As i walk
Let me walk close to Thee
(Repeat chorus)
When my feeble life is o’er
Time for me will be no more
Guide me gently, safely o’er
To Thy kingdom shore,
To Thy shore
Lyrics Here Also
and here is a link if you want a download of the song on their album, I like this version a little better...PS sorry it is not free but worth the 99 cents.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Daily Disciplines - Devotional
Daily Devotional:Let me explain that being a Mommy of three ,wife , dog walker...I do not usually get a block of time with God, so I really do mean a "daily" devotional. I talk to God when I can. I really utilize technology for my materials, study guides and research.
1) 6 AM Meeting with God to be in his word
- This morning I did the pulpit study guide provided by our church, Crossroads, I get this sent electronically from the church, you can sign up at the small group hub for this.
- I also have daily readings sent to my email to read the Bible in a year. This link is on the right side of my blog.
- Other times I pray to him through song.
2) Read Purpose Driven Life Daily Devotional (also sent electronically to my email)
3) I Blog to journal my thoughts and receive feedback from other believers.
4) Study: I use on-line references to understand meanings of words and cross references, and quite honestly, I do not have a set in I use. I GOOGLE search on the verse I am working on.
5) Pray: I do have a strategy to keep me on track in my prayers, I tend to ramble (if any of you are snickering, you know me tooo well!) : Thank you Pastor Jason Allison for the acrostic.
A - Acknowledge
Give reverence to the "AWE"of God
"Hallowed be thy name"
C - Confess
I am a sinner. I am powerless. Followed by any grievance I need to repent for.
T - Thanksgiving
Thank yous for the Mercies and Graces God gives me daily.
S - Supplication
Prayers for my brothers and sisters in Christ
I wanted to leave you with today's message from A Purpose Driven Life.
I can't tell you how many times God has given me clarification in these messages. With my pending decision, this mornings devotion was just another example:
The Bible offers three timeless principles for facing an uncertain future:
1. Let God set your goals. It’s foolish to make any plans without first consulting God. He’s the only one who does know the future, and he’s eager to guide you through it. The Bible says “We may make our plans, but God has the last word” (Proverbs 16:1 GNT). In other words, planning without praying is presumption. Start by praying, “God, what do you want me to do?”
2. Live one day at a time. While you can plan for tomorrow, you can’t live tomorrow until it arrives. Most people spend so much time regretting the past and worrying about the future, they have no time for today! Commit to making the most of each moment of each day. Jesus said, “Don’t be anxious about tomorrow. God will take care of your tomorrow too. Live one day at a time” (Matthew 6:34 LB).
3. Don’t procrastinate. Procrastinating is a subtle trap. It wastes today by postponing things until tomorrow. You promise yourself that you’ll do it “one of these days,” but then “one of these days” turns into “none of these days.” The Bible says, “Do not boast about [what you’re going to do] tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth” (Proverbs 27:1 NIV). What have you planned to do that you haven’t done yet? When do you intend to start working on it?
© 2008 Purpose Driven Life. All rights reserved.
How We Fall Back Into Old Habits
Last night after I kicked into - FIND A JOB MODE (One I my habits)
I failed to mention I did one more thing: I PRAYED
I didn't do it first, I fell into my pattern of just do it, BUT it is never to late to I change. As I stopped my FIND A JOB MODE to attend church I was reminded what I forgot!
Last night was Communion at our church. A very special night to remember, reflect and practice an act of joyful obedience - "And do this in remembrance of me"
Our church also offers elder prayer on these nights. This is an opportunity to follow another of God's guides to pray for and with each other. (James 5:13-16)
My prayer is simple:
Lord open the doors you want me to walk through and close the doors that will
tempt me to do my will and not yours.
I leave you with an opportunity to pray with God. Those that know me personally, understand my love of music, I have include some beautiful praise music from last nights service...
The music is only 1:10, you can spare that. God misses you ;0)
(Thank you Milo and Jessica for the Music)
Life Got in the Way of Dying
- Loving Life
- Living Disciplines
- Sharing Hope
I have been blessed to be a stay-at-home mom for 5 years now. I have been working part-time as a small business owner, Integrity Project Management and have partnered with a dear friend, Donna from TheWebCoach.net over the last year and 1/2. I have been so honored to work with people local, national and international and watch them take their dreams from an idea to reality.
This flexible schedule has allowed me to:
- Be Mom
- Be Wife
- Be Employee
- Be Employer
- Be Friend
- Be Encourager
- Be Volunteer
Re-Evaluation Day
I pulled out the resume and made the appropriate updates. Immediately hit the on-line hiring sites:
I am never sure what to put in the search field. The only criteria I am sure of is that it has to be local because my community is my family and I choose to serve those I live with.
(NOTE: I have yet to find a job description looking for an passionate Life Lover looking to work her disciplines and share her hope to benefit a not for profit people focused company.)
I enter my experience, upload the resume and wait for responses.
I then check the freelance sites. DO the same process. And Wait...
OK now I can get back to Dying!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Ambulance Lights

Who's House Is It?
My heart was racing. As I drove up my road, I saw ambulance lights just past my house. Which house is it? Please don't let it be Mrs. "S" . Mrs. S was recently diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer and last I had heard she hadn't been doing well.
As I got closer, I realized it was the next house. I thanked God that it wasn't Mrs. S, but immediately realized how selfish I was.
- Because Mrs. S is a Christ follower. She has a personal relationship with her Savior.
- Because eventhough it was not my friend, the ambulance had stopped at another child of God's house.

